The company where I work gives us a break on our health insurance costs if we sign up for their health assistance program which is run by a company called Well Now. Being of the frugal sort, I signed up.
They came to the office, drew blood, measured blood pressure, height, weight and then gave us a school type grade on our fitness level. Despite all my scores coming back within their proper range for a female of my age and height – I scored a “C” based solely on my weight, it was enough to drag me down that far.
Both I and my personal physician thought this was a little unfair, but that’s beside the point.
One of the benefits of the program we receive is a by-monthly meeting with our own personal healthcare consultant.
The first one they assigned to me quit. I swear I wasn’t trying to scare her away, but about five minutes into our conversation both she and I realized she knew about a tenth as much about nutrition as I did. The next month a new lady called and said the first one had quit the company.
And yes, I feel a little guilty for it.
At any rate the second lady is a very nice woman named Deborah who is both more knowledgeable and has some health street cred since she has lost and kept off a little over 80 pounds herself.
A few things about our conversation today were interesting…
One thing she praised me for was the fact that I have quit following any of the prefabricated American “diets” any longer. She and I were both in agreement that over my lifetime of restrictions and rules, I’ve probably caused most of my weight gain in trying and failing at them repeatedly. This is not a new belief to me, but I was pleased that she shared my idea that a “diet” should simply refer to what you eat, not what you’re paying someone to tell you not to eat.
She also acknowledges that my understanding of nutrition is way above and beyond that of the average bear – and in her opinion I have everything going for me to be able to achieve my goals. She also said it’s all right if my goal is just to like the way I look more, but for long term health purposes less weight on the skeleton would also be beneficial.
So what did she want me to do?
She advocates little changes.
A good example would be giving up sugared soda. That’s not a valid one for me because I’ve never drank sugared soda to begin with, but you get the idea. She asked me to come up with some of these little changes I could put into practice right now, and see what happens between now and the next time I talk to her.
I admit, my motivation has been at an all time low recently. Two years into health blogging and I have zero weight loss to show for it. My skin is pretty and my cholesterol is good – but looking into a mirror and seeing pictures of myself is still just as painful as ever.
Another thing Deborah strongly suggested is loving my body right now. Ted is going to love this one too because he’s long insisted that the obstacle between me and my goals is the fact that I kind of hate myself a bit. My response to this is that it’s kind of like telling a single person: “oh just stop looking for a partner, and then you’ll find one!” How the crap am I supposed to stop wanting it?
At any rate, I promised her I’d come up with a few things, some regarding mental health and some physical. Here they are:
1) No snack meals. Sometimes when I get home from work and I’m eating alone because nobody else is around, I’ll just eat snacks until I’m full rather than prepare a proper meal for myself. They’re never healthy, contain too many calories and almost always make me feel like crap. I’m cutting this grazing behavior out.
2) No abusing of me. At least, not out loud (I can’t help what goes through my head sometimes). Remember to thank God daily for a body that can do whatever I want it to because it’s not paralyzed, sick, weak or missing anything. I should be very, very grateful for that. Every day.
3) No liquid calories. I already don’t drink soda but I do put sugar in my coffee and tea and sometimes I have milk. All of those need to go. And before anybody jumps down my throat about the milk may I remind you that it’s baby food – I’m an adult animal, I do NOT need it.
4) Write every day. I’ve been slacking off on this and it really does effect my mental health and productivity profoundly. Doesn’t have to be a blog post but I’ve got to get SOMETHING out of my head and into print daily so my skills don’t atrophy. I’ve found myself staring at fiction pieces lately with a low, dull tone droning through my head instead of flowing words – and that’s not good.
That’s it for now. Somewhere I’ve gotta find my lost motivation and I’m hoping this helps.